Waiting on God
“What we didn’t see coming was failure. ”
When Andrew and I were married we desperately wanted to have kids right away. We shared this dream with others and surrounded ourselves with friends and family who wanted the same. Our eyes were big and bright, seeing only the plans we had laid out for ourselves and our family.
What we didn’t see coming was failure.
One month of trying turned into six months, and six months grew to a year. We began seeing doctors and specialists, but after months of treatment we still weren’t getting results. There were times where I would take a pregnancy tests only to see another negative result, then hours later a close friend would announce they were having a baby. We were always so happy for others, but our own sadness grew more and more with each new announcement. New doctors gave us more bad news; without doing in vitro fertilization there was no way we would have a baby of our own. Stressed, angry, confused, and defeated, we finally took a break from trying.
Why was this happening to us? What did we do wrong? Our plan was just like everybody else's, but for some reason it wasn’t working. It just didn’t seem fair. It wasn’t until a friend gave the simple suggestion of surrendering our situation to the Lord that we realized what we had been missing all along.
We were so quick to force our agenda that we had never given a thought to what God wanted for our family. It had always been our family and our agenda. All these months we had been fighting as if it was the two of us against our problem. But we couldn’t have been more wrong!
“Why was this happening to us? What did we do wrong? Our plan was just like everybody else’s...”
We went home and wrote down every verse we could find in the Bible that spoke to pregnancy and children, and ultimately learned how good God really is. With this, we began to change the way we prayed. We no longer pleaded with God, but boldly stood on what scripture declared and prayed in faith that pregnancy would come. Pregnancy still didn’t come overnight, but with prayer, the disappointment and confusion slowly faded and we were once again filled with hope!
After one more year of trying and meditating on God’s word, we decided to open up to a prayer partner at Radiant during a Saturday night service. A pastor and his wife prayed over us, and there, with Andrew’s hand over my stomach, I felt as though a weight was lifted. Just a few days later I felt a gentle nudge in my soul to take a pregnancy test, and saw my first ever positive result! I took five more right after because I couldn’t believe my eyes!
I had an absolutely wonderful pregnancy, and today we have a three year old son named Isaac. God’s timing in his birth was truly perfect. Isaac is an absolute blessing from the Lord, and he’s a living testimony of what God can do when you wait on Him in faith. Today our marriage is better than ever, and our relationship with God has gone to a whole new level. Our journey of faith and waiting was difficult, complex, and full of questions, but when we look back on our story we see that God orchestrated it all for our good.
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