God, Do You See Me?

When Radiant City Music was doing their live capture for their first album, I showed up just a few minutes late ready to spend some time in the Lord's presence! I had heard that kids were welcome in the sanctuary, so I brought my three kids, ages two-six, into worship with me. As a mom, you always do your best to prepare for whatever setting your kids will be in, and I thought I had shown up that evening with enough snacks and activities to keep them preoccupied, but unfortunately, that was not the case!

“God, do you see me? I am trying to come and sit at your feet
and be in your presence, but this season feels impossible.”

As the evening continued, my kids wanted to get closer and closer to the stage, and I was battling trying to let them be children while also trying to keep them at an acceptable noise level for the recording. While doing these things, I was struggling to be able to even enjoy and engage in worship myself. My frustration was mounting. I remember just standing there and praying, "God, do you see me? I am trying to come and sit at your feet and be in your presence, but this season feels impossible. I'm trying, Lord."

I came to my seat to find my journal and write down some of what was happening. When I was finished, a woman touched my shoulder, saying she had a word for me. My first thought was, "oh boy, what was this going to mean or be?" and I responded with, "ok" in an apprehensive voice. She said, "I heard God say that He is delighting in this, that you've brought your kids here, and that they are experiencing Him like this." I immediately began to cry. She continued on with what the Lord wanted to share with me, and it was exactly what I needed to hear. I thanked her for hearing the Holy Spirit and sharing that word with me. I told her that not even five minutes before she had shared it with me, I was praying about that very thing.

The Lord used her to send me an immediate response to what I was seeking from Him. It was one of the craziest moments I had experienced to pray, and not for world peace or something "big" but rather something as tender and intimate as, "Lord, see me! See this effort. Oh, I'm falling apart, but I'm trying!" and He answered, "I do see you, child. I do. And I am delighted."

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